Tuesday, October 25, 2005
My lovely grandma!
One year ago, grandma has tumor in her breast(breast cancer) and went for an operation so removed it. This year March, the tumor is back and the doctor says it cannot be removed anymore. So the doctor gave medician to help control the cancer from spreading. But now its more serious, the cancer cannot be control anymore and has spread to blood. And now it has become leukimile(dunno how to spell).
Now, grandma was too weak to walk, therefore she has to lay on the bed all the time. She could not speck properly because of the "theraphy"(dunno how to spell) therefore, sometime the family can't understand what she is trying to say.
23/10/2005
I wake up very early to see grandma and make sure the maid feed her. When I called "grandma" she look at me and say very softly "ah li, ur face very white white" I replied "where got?!" and we both smile :) she look at me and pointed at my spect so i take it off and gave her, i told her that its is red and she replied me with a smile and reture the spect to me.
Again, she ask me things like "u dun have sch today?" "wats the date today?" "have u eaten?" "wats the time now?"
24/10/2005
At night while sleeping, i dream of my grandma going to leave and when i wake up i found myself crying because there was tears in my eyes and my heart pump very fast.
I went to see grandma today and found that her body is getting more of the blue-black. It is not being hit by someone or an object, it is actually the system of blood cancer. When i ask her iszit painful she replied no. But i know that as time goes by the pain will come and this is wat i am very worried about.
25/10/2005
Today grandma went to see doctor and doctor told my uncle that if my grandma is lucky, she will have few more months to live if not will be few weeks only, after hearing this uncle tears.
This news has spread to the whole family, everyone was very moody and so do I.
*God, pls dun take her away from this world. I know gong3 gong2 up there miss her alot, but i really cant take the pain of losing her.
